The end is in sight! I'm at 63 pages in my Criminally Long outline. I'm done with reading for the semester.

I think I need to step back a little and think seriously about my joint degree idea. If I'm not going to practice law, there's far less reason to get myself all up in arms over every little class. I've given it a pretty good chance, but I don't feel like it's really bitten me.

I don't think I "love the law" or really like or respect it much. That's not to say I don't think it's worthwhile to study it or that the people who study it or practice it are bad or anything, but I don't feel much more like it's really the thing for me than before I started.

That's also not to say that I won't finish law school, I have every reason to. And I could still be persuaded that it's wonderful and I should take the bar and all that. But I think I can have a satisfying career doing the things I like most--writing, teaching, helping people and so on--without the extreme stress of trying to come out at the top of my class so I can have a thin shot at a law professorship in particular.

Do you all think I should go and do the Oxford program next summer? Mysterious forces are at work trying to get me to go, but I've had some bad international travel experiences in the past that I may describe here later.